O yes bitches. It’s Spring Break and I am hella happy. So many emotions right now, you don’t want to know. No more school, no more of the stupid people at school. No more teachers, no more work. Only my laptop, mobile, bed, food and me. Yeah, that’s how life should be.

Here’s my playlist of February (or the top 5 songs I listened to this month, whatev):

1. Love Me Like You Do – Ellie Goulding  (Biggest 5sog fan, right here ♥)

2. Bailando – Enrique Iglesias (I must confess, I had to Google the song and copy his name because, like, O.o)

3. Firestone – Kygo (Our hearts are like, FIRESTONES ^^)

4. Heroes (we could be) – Alesso (We could be heroes, oehoee)

5. Earned It – The Weeknd (Told ya, biggest fan ♥)


There’s nothing left to say. Besides that I’m sick, btw. But for some reason, I don’t want to throw up and cut my head off. I’m actually happy.

I’m goin’ to sleep now.



My guide on how to survive Valentine’s Day.

There are multiple reasons why I wanted to write this post. The first one, obviously, is because I don’t have a life. I mean, who even writes or read blogs anymore these days. Now it’s all Youtube and Insta and Twitter and what not. Second is because I don’t have a boyfriend, not even a crush or something. So I don’t have someone to spend Valentine’s Day with. And third, because I really need a guide to survive this day. And I know, I know, there are plenty of these ‘how to survive V-Day alone‘ articles. But the best one has yet to come, cuz I’ve never written one. ^^. Now, there are a whole lot more reasons why I wrote this. But let’s just dive right into it.

Also, this is how MY day went. And from the looks of it, I’ve survived it just fine. So if you just follow my steps, and do what I did, time will fly by. And before you know, it’s 15 February ;).

Valentine’s Day starts at 00.00 on the 14th of February. At that point I wasn’t sleeping yet. No, instead (and this is the truth), I watched the 50 shades of Grey trailer for the 1000x time. Literally. Not that there’s any bit of love in that movie, I watched it because the movie just came out. Little bit of a coincidence, I didn’t even realize that it was in fact 14 feb until 00.13, when my dad stumbled downstairs, saying, “I couldn’t sleep, coughing all the time. Wait, why the hell are you still up?” And I’m sitting on the couch with my laptop being like, “Uhh, I’m not sleepy.” So he shrugged and turned on the tv and I went to bed. After brushing my teeth, of course. And just a little note, I have 2 paintings of Cupid above my bed. So, if you Google Cupid Painting, and then it’s the 3 from the left. That, but then each head in a separate frame.

Anyway, that was how my Valentine’s Day started. No, actually, it didn’t count as V-day. It never counts until you wake up….So I woke up at 10.59, because I always sleep in on Weekends and especially on Valentine. I suggest you do the same. I woke up with a MAJOR headache, to the sound of my neighbors, fucking drilling in their wall, ruining my already ruined day. I didn’t realize it right away, not until I almost fell out of bed because of the shock. Yes, that’s right, I thought it was going to be a peaceful day.

I went downstairs, where my dad was also DRILLING in the livingroom and I’m like, “fucckkk.” My mother, the big swearing hater, looked a little bit pissed when I said that. She made me an omelet and it was 11.42 when I was done with my breakfast. I grabbed my laptop, put on my headphones and just blocked all the stupid hammering and drilling noises out with epic music. Not the cheesy stuff, just instrumental. It really helps! I recommend Two Steps From Hell.

At 13.16 I went to the gym. I know what y’all thinking, it’s a depressing day, let me stay in bed and eat chocolate. But let me tell you something, going to the gym and sweat a bit releases a butt lot of negative energy. You’ll feel sooooo much better after. Trust me. And when I came back at 14.30, I found out that mom went grocery shopping. She bought me Pumpkin Spice Latte, size: Large. 4 Croissants, because why won’t you eat food from the city of love on an international day for love? Mini Belgian chocolates ← they’re honestly TO. DIE. FOR. ♥.♥ And a little box of blueberries, my favorite kind 🙂

If I were you, tell your mother to buy these things. You will definitely need it. I see that this is not a guide anymore. More of a, how I spend my Valentine’s Day stuff. I’ll save that for when I get a real life bad ass hottie boyfriend.

After the gym, I went to my room, of course, with this little laptop baby and watched a whole lot of movies. I began with Letters to Juliet, cause no way in hell I’ll watch the classic sleepover (and with that I mean, the Notebook or Titanic or Grease). Then I moved on to Safe Haven, No Strings Attached ← which is btw better than Friends with Benefits.

I like to watch these kind of movies. Just to get a little love sphere here and there. But I totally understand if you don’t want to. In that case, you could watch Saw 1 to 7 if you’re into horror. Annabelle or The Conjuring if you’re into thrillers. And The Hangover or Pitch Perfect if you’re into comedy. Fast and Furious or Transformers if you’re into action. The Hobbit or Avatar if you’re into fantasy. And the best for last: Fifty Shades of Grey, if you’re into porn and manage to get through security at the cinema when you’re under 17.

You could marathon your favorite series, for instance, mine are: Friends (comedy), Bones (police, crime stuff), Suits (legal drama), American Horror Story (horror), How to Get Away With Murder or Sherlock (best shows if you want to get your thoughts off something. For example, when your boyfriend breaks up with you and you don’t know what to do other than crying, I suggest you go watch these 2 shows because you will probably forget him after the first 10 minutes.)

Tonight, I will most definitely marathon Suits and plan to go to bed at probably 22.00 but I’ll end up watching until the sun goes up and I’m like, shitshitshitshitshit. Yeah…. that’s basically how everyday in my life goes. Also, I forgot to say, you could just read a good book, that usually takes up a few hours of the day.

Anyway, this post has been too fucking long. Just as long as the one with the Liebster Award. I’m going to stop now. This took me approximately 1.5 hours to write. There is going to be grammar mistakes. Oops.

Friday 13th.

You never realize how fast February goes by until it’s March and you’re like, where the fuck is my February? Btw, did y’all notice the date today? Friday 13th. I hope for everyone that they don’t get killed today, because there might be something’ for them tomorrow. Such as a kiss, or card, or cuddle, or hug, or flowers, or a date, or a box of chocolate, or the best sex the ever had. Who knows.

Now that I’m already on this topic, I just wanna like ramble about this particular thing called love. That thing that everybody wants on this Earth, more than anything, even though many try to deny it (such as me). It’s universal, such as jealousy or hate. Don’t try to deny, I know that you want love so fucking badly, whenever you realize that you don’t have it (especially girls), you end up with chocolate and The Notebook or Titanic.

Many seek but can’t find.

Many hide but can’t escape.

It’s ridiculous how much people on blogs ramble and go on and on and on and on about this one boy or girl. Their dreamy eyes, their cute smile that make you light up inside. Their little perfect imperfection. Here’s a truth for those who are in love: It’s better not to fall in love, it’s better not to get your head too high in the clouds, because you’ll end up on the ground eventually. Even when you’re married, have 5 kids and a dog. Or when you’re older, have 10 grandchildren and one kid who died in some stupid accident.

You. Will. End. Up. On. The. Ground.

There you go. I’ve got the truth laid out for you. All bright and clear. You don’t even have to spend time thinking about it. Wondering how you would be in a certain number of years.

Al right, on to my day. Never special really happened. As in, I didn’t have any accidents (yet). I am still alive, let’s hope that I won’t have a heart attack this afternoon. I guess I was just really tired of life today, like every other day.

Gotta go now. I gotta make spaghetti because it’s Friday and that’s cooking day. I hate kitchens. Anyway, let’s get busy then… 

Uhm. There is a thing called Liebster Award?

liesbster 2So yesterday I got this comment from arainbowidea saying she nominated me for some award called Liebster ← that seriously makes me think of Lobster >.<. Moving on, I want to thank her for nominating me. Tbh I have never heard of such a thing but apparently it’s some Award for blogs under 200 followers. Well, thanks for appreciating my un-popular character. I clicked the link she send me, obviously, and apparently there are a set of rules. (This is copied from her blog)

  • Thank the blogger who nominated you. (I just did.)
  • Answer the 11 questions set by the blogger. (Oe, I like this one!)
  • Give 11 facts about yourself. (Less fun…. (-_-))
  • Nominate 11 other bloggers with less than 200 followers. (Shit, I don’t know anyone. ;$)
  • Let the 11 other bloggers know you have nominated them, and give 11 new questions for them to answer. (What the fuck. now I have to make questions up? Does ‘would you rather’ count as a question??)

Here are the questions that I have to answer:

1. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?

New York, most definitely.

2. Which do you go to more often- big chain bookstores, or small independent bookstores?

Big chain bookstores, because they have more books.

3. If you had to choose between having friends or family, which would you choose?

Family, besides, your friends can be your family too.

4. What’s your all-time favorite book?

I dunno, don’t have one. Also, it kind of depends. Maybe To Kill a Mockingbird? Idk.

5. Do you re-read books you like?


6. Do you have plans for your future? Dream job, family, etc.

Yes. I’ll probably go to some university, hopefully Oxford because I’ve wanted to go there since like 3 grade or somethin’. And then work at a publishing company or some magazine, write short stories for thing like The New Yorker or something. Maybe even write a book. I could also work for a law firm and become a lawyer. Uhm and then maybe marry someone, have 2 kids and 1 cat or have 4 cats. Depends.

7. Do you consider yourself a nerd, popular, jock, etc- do you think you fall under any sort of (cliché) social category? Or are you uncategorized?

Socially Awkward, probably the loser group? Or uncategorized.

8. Have you ever broken a bone?

Nope. And I’d like to keep it that way.

9. Do your parents have a huge impact on who you are and what you like to do?

Yes, probably my mom the most. What I like to do? Watch tv-shows, read, eat, sleep.

10. What is your favorite food?

Sushi. Lasagna. EVERYTHING (except carrots)

11. Do you prefer reading or watching tv (or a movie)?

Depends on the fucking movie/book. But most of the time, I’ll go with reading.

Alright, now 11 facts about me. I can already imagine you guys being like, who the fuck cares?!? But oh well, suck it up, read or leave I always say.

1. I play piano. And no, I am not passive aggressive when playing it.

2. I am always obsessing over something or someone. My friends can confirm that if you don’t believe.

3. I once had 2 rabbits, one jumped over the balcony and then I got another one. But then I had to give them away because I moved to a new house.

4. I have never lived anywhere longer than 5 years.

5. I really HATE this part of the ‘nomination’ process. Tbh I’m really sick of these facts. They’re so, like, standard. But I don’t wanna give you the non-standard because that’d be so fucked up.

6. I believe in karma and fate and possibly true love, depends on what mood I’m in. But as of right now, I don’t wanna think about love. Cuz Valentine’s Day, y’all know how I hate 14 february -_-

7. I absolutely HATE infinity and forever. So this thing → ∞ absolutely means nothing to me. I don’t believe in forever. But I’ll still get a tattoo of the double infinity sign on my wrist when I’m 18, The one just like in Revenge (Emily Thorne). I like the sign, and I know that everything will eventually end, but somethings are just fucking forever.

8. My favorite song ever is ‘Prosthetic Love’ by Typhoon.

9. I am the most cynical and pessimistic person you will ever meet.

10. I am a Sagittarius.

11. I saved the best one for last. Although, I thought about not getting all depressed when getting nominated. But here, as a thank you to all my readers, I will give you a secret. It’s a really good one…… So, I don’t know if you all know. I don’t think I’ve ever write this before. But, when I was little, I think around 5ish or something, my best friend was my nephew of the same age (a month older). I lived with him and my mom and grandparents and aunt and uncle and another nephew (8 years older, I think.) My dad was away at the time. (Btw, Rachel, you know where I’m going with this, right?) Let’s just rip the band aid off. He may have sexually assaulted me. Well, he definitely did. And it doesn’t matter because I was little and I didn’t know what I did, but I guess I often gave him a handjob >< No, I’m not proud of this. And he still does it, every time we are alone somewhere. He just slowly moves his hand under my shirt and touch my tits and then move down my pants. I often shove his hands away, but he never stops. And I’ll stop right here. But, just so you know, I don’t know what the fuck happened when I was little. Meaning: I don’t know how far we went. I can’t remember, there is one moment that I can’t remember. And I’m kind of scared to recall, so you know what, I’ll just leave it at this.

My apologies for this depressing thing. Here are the people who I nominate (btw, I’m new here so I don’t know a lot of little blogs. But here I go. Oh, ALSO, I had a fucking hard time to find these blogs because I didn’t wanna re-nominate some other blogs. So, if I didn’t nominate you, it’s either because I couldn’t overlooked, or was too lazy, or I didn’t like you, or I didn’t like your blog, or you haven’t posted anything in a long time, or you’ve already been nominated.)

To Live With All My Might


Sophia Patel Blog

Nothing Like Class

These are all the blogs I could find that weren’t totally abandoned or like mega popular. I guess this is it for now.

FUCK. Nevermind. The questions -_-. Do u know how long this post is? I seriously hate long blogs, they’re fucking annoying and boring to read.

My Questions:

1. Would you rather see your parents have sex everyday or join once to make it stop?

2. If you could date one person from a book/show/movie, who would it be and why?

3. What is your ultimate OTP?


/’one-true-pair-ing/ ; noun.

Your favorite combination of characters in a fandom. Most of the time a romantic relationship/interest.

4. What is your favorite book & tv series & movie & song & artist & actor & actress?

5. Why did you start your blog?

6. Who are you best friends? Where did you meet them? Why do you trust them?

7. Describe your relationship with your parents.

8. What would you do with 1 million dollars?

9. Describe your typical day.

10. What your favorite number & animal & country & food?

11. Tell me your biggest secret.

OK, NOW I am done. Jeez. This took me 1 fucking hour to write.

PS: For those who I nominated. It’s not ‘for blogs that have under 200 followers’ but its ‘for blogs that have less than 200 followers’. Yeah, pretty embarrassing. But I never said I was good in grammar 😉 #awkwardmoment

I am furious right now.

Don’t mess with me, I am a ticking bomb waiting to explode. Or as Hazel Grace would say it, I am a grenade. And Bruno Mars can’t catch a Grenade for me cuz I AM the grenade.

So I told you before that I was supposed to go shopping with Olivia today. Well, no. At the least fucking minute her mom decided to ground Olivia. She’s such a bitch. And I’m not even sorry for saying that, Olivia hates her too. Well…. not hate. But she gives us both the tendency to choke someone.

I mean, I don’t even care about the shopping. Yeah I need some stuff, but I just wanna spend time with my best friend for once without other people hanging around. Ugh. So I guess I’ll have to hang around at home doing nothing.

Speaking of which, I’m starting to get good at it. At doing absolutely NOTHING. And it’s fucking bothering me because I don’t wanna be some useless bitch, you know. I wanna do something, always be creating but on the other hand I just wanna lay in be all day, listen to depressing songs and eat chocolate because it’s my period.

Fuck. Mom just got home from grocery shopping. I bet she has some chocolate for me. If I’m not fast she’ll eat the whole thing herself.

SIDE NOTE: To ALL the men and guys and boyfriends and husbands, PLEASEEE, PLEASE, I am BEGGING you. Buy us some chocolate. Women need chocolate. WE. NEED. CHOCOLATE. Except for those who are allergic, but other than that, you better buy us some or else we’ll be gone. I’m looking at you → ♂♂♂

Ok. Bye.

Welcome February.

So, another month has gone by in a blink of an eye. I would say that this wasn’t the worst month, but obviously not the best either. I didn’t fully realize that it was February until a week later and my period started. 1 more week and it’s Valentine’s Day. Yay, for couples, right? Well, it depends. If you look it at the bright side, you’ll probably get chocolate and flowers from your boyfriend or a scrapbook and deodorant from you girlfriend because it’s the only way she could encourage you to smell better the next time you two see each other.

Moving on, February had its way to start good, I guess. On the 5th I went lasergaming with some friends. Well…. that depends on what your definition is of friends. Actually it was 1 friend and 1 guy who am trying to get and 11 other people.

So that guy, it’s not Michael. I won’t tell you his name, but I’ll tell you this. I don’t actually like him or anything. It’s just this test me and Rachel made up…. correction: Rachel and me. Anyway, you know those movies that are way too cliché but are still fun to watch? That chick flick when a girl/guy had a bet and tries to get a girl/guy by making this roadmap and just slowly become more than friends?

I think you understand it now.

Are there any other stupid things to tell you guys? Tomorrow I’m going shopping with Olivia. Like, yes, I finally get to see her 😀 She’s like the only person that doesn’t annoy me, ever. So, I’m glad I finally get to see her.

See u later, losers!